Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Woah.

I strongly prefer Light-Skinned people to Dark-Skinned people.

I retook that test out of pure shame.

I slightly prefer Light-Skinned people to Dark-Skinned people.

I have little to no preference between Fat people and Thin people.

That one only took one try.

I feel racist, and it feels awful - that was horrifying. There is prejudice instilled in my brain. It makes me nauseous to even think about.

That is absolutely unbelievable, that this nation can never outrun it's history. White people will always be inherently racist - it's in our MINDS. But I wonder, when a black person takes that test, are they racist? Does he/she show a strong or slight preference for dark-skinned people? I'd bet money on it. So what is wrong with us? This no mix, no blend, stick to our own groups attitude - is it based on "race"? Ethnicity? Nationality? What is it Sal??? I have to know!

People separate into groups with not only like-minded people, but people who are similar in color, size, shape, etc. WHY? Comfort zones?

2 comments:

Sal said...

I hope you get this. I wanted to message you for a few things:
First, you are not consciously racist and you should feel good about that. Also, because of sociology you are more aware of these unconscious associations that are within you. That means you can make yourself aware of them more and possibly work to overcome them. You are part of a culture that promotes these attitudes - so it is not just you. And yes, even the groups in question have the same negative associations. For example many black Americans will tell you that they have difficulty trusting another black when it comes to hiring a contractor or repairman for their home. Many blacks will perceive a black neighborhood as being more dangerous than a white neighborhood, purely based on the color of those in the hood. It's like those girls in the video I posted called, A girl like me. Watch that. It is so sad what these young girls are learning. I am not sure what exactly you are asking about in your last question - maybe you can email with clarification.

Second, the Canadians moved in! The license plate on the moving truck said "Ontario". I might walk over there today and try to casually run into them so that I can say hello and welcome. (I have a mild-slight preference for Canadians hahaha :-)

Third, I know your service experience was not what I was looking for, but did you still do a reflection? I only found a journal.

Fourth, thanks for all of your insightful blogging this semester and for being such a great part of class. You are truly a pleasure to have in class.

Sal said...

I just found your reflection - disregard #3 from my earlier comment.